wasnt all that great.
it was the first time, (no. first THREE times)
i cried in public. like namely at suntec,
in ang mo kio, and suntec again.
in the middle of the linkway from the mrt.
first time i ever felt so vulnerable in my life,
first time i realise, i wasnt as strong as i was
when i was in cedar. that i couldnt get over
things as quickly as i wanted to.
the first time i mugged so hard,
but no satisfaction comes from my grades.
a lot of first times, and all not fantastic things.
but i learnt a lot, and i grew stronger. (hopefully)
as much as i dont really like 2009,
but the year has taught me a lot,
through experience learning,
things i can never learn from sch, learn from parents,
learn from talking to people.
Things i can only learn from first falling,
and then picking up myself up.
and putting plasters myself,
and waiting for the wounds to heal.
even so, i really hoped the last day of the year,
31 Dec 2009,
will be a good day,
a better day than the 364 days before.
apparently it was not,
and i cant help but feel disappointed.
and i hoped 1st Jan 2010,
will be a good day,
so i can finally put away the 365 not so
fantastic days of my life.
but it wasnt a fantastic day either.
no it wasnt horrible,
but it was just neutral i guess.
what i can only do for myself,
is hope the rest of the 364 days
will be happier, at least comparative to 2009.
i wun be naive to think the year will be
uneventful and will pass by peacefully
like what i wish it to,
but at least im able to handle the problems
confidently, without much distress.
and hopefully without being too upset
over the whole issue.
i hope i have a happier 364 days of this year. :D
